He died for such things as this

Been pondering how the mistakes I have made can be used by God to bring Him more glory than if I live the perfect role modelish life so many people believe I live. I am His Beloved and like any true knight in shining armor, He came to rescue me from my sin and pain. The truth remains that I know for these things (sin, injustice, lust, selfishness, insecurity) Christ died and his forgiveness is very real to me. I live to please His heart and His alone. My heart is overjoyed by those who don't judge me, but instead by those who respect me more for being real about my weakness...I will boast in my weakness for that is when Christ's power can be made perfect in my life. And thru my sin, pain and brokeness, I can love & minster more, accept more and win those who don't think they are good enough for Jesus to Him, because I am a sinner in need of grace just like them and somehow thru this, they will know for such as them; He died. I want to be used by Jesus so bad...and thru my mistakes; I wonder if He can still use me, He has spoken to my heart and said to keep my chin up for there is nothing I can do to make Him love me more and there is nothing I can do to make Him love me less. He is Sovereign and He knew the choices I would make that would break His heart, but like an artist, He will make a beautiful masterpiece of even the broken things in life. May I always extend the grace He has poured into my life these past several months into the lives of those who are struggling too- for such things as this- He died.

Feelings of being cherished and chosen

God has put into the heart of every woman a desire to be cherished and chosen- to be beautiful and noticed. I have been on a great adventure in the past year or so of what it feels like to be cherished and chosen by a human man, but also what it is like to experience the deep love of Christ towards me. This blog is full of the thoughts and revelations I have and will have as God begins to give me more understanding of His deep love for me. I am 4 weeks away from my wedding day and I believe God has so many ways He desires to woo my heart